Sunday, December 31, 2006
it was a bad dream followed by a sweet one.
met up with josh to town.
new york cheesecake was nice.
damn,i'll gain back my weight at anytime.
didnt get to catch deathnote.lousy seats.
cw n cheryl came.
den coincidently,prasad and pple came.
so proud of myself.i didnt went down to mos.
all of them looked so shag n they're still clubbing .
tml gonna party!
but b4 tat,
a night at the museum.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
i seriously feel tat ibook sucks lah.
i wanna use microsof.
i wanna download picasa.
i wanna download hello.
den will uploading the pics be easier AND FASTER!
jux had my breakfast.
macD breakfast always make me smile.
i love big breakfast,AND HASHBROWN!.
and now i really need to slp.
freaking tired.
-yawns-
yes.insomnia once again.
damn.it's 7.30 lah!
yes.A.M!
went town with grace.
camwhoring the whole day.
cheryl came later.
yes.i had my brownie.
alright,i'll post the fotos soon.
mos after sakae sushi.
i hate waiting.
but it's alright with company.
had fun.
i wanna make zhi heng drunk!
waiting for NYE.
i'm loving you gal,
u're forever my gal i promised.
our friendship goes on.
damn,i'm tired but i cant get to slp.
god,help me!
Thursday, December 28, 2006
went back office and had lunch.
rain rain rain.
boring.
lin ge acc me to pay my fees.
the sch campus seems comfy.
gonna start class on tue.damn.
met up pam.had dinner.
vann was late.pig!
and tai pig pig didnt come.
cos she's another pig.(yes dianna tai,talking bout u)
i'm tired.
and i didnt get to eat my brownie.
i wan brownies!!
and everyone says me and van are sisters.
damn.
haha.nah.i love her.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
i thought i could slp thruout the night.
the weather's gd.
but ya,i'm up again.
vann came up my hse.
couldnt go town with her cos of e rain.
was online the whole day.
chatting with my new found pig fren.
and i guess i really meant pig.
haha.but i noe i'm pigger.
it's bleeding.damn,i'm worried.
i'm excited to start class.
and yah,sort of lazy too.
new yr eve gonna be great.
we'll party``
i wanna chill too.
my back needs rest.
i love my family and friends.
most importantly,
i'm loving ME.
Monday, December 25, 2006
i'm thinking of movie.
but i'm lazy.
i miss netball.
i miss sports.
Insomnia.
peer pressure.
but MOS was great.
the crowd was a little unexpected.
Great night,Great people.
love my x'mas gift frm chrissie.
i love my gal.
MERRY X'MAS!
post the photos soon.
loves (:
Sunday, December 24, 2006
it's xmas eve.
and i hate the x'mas crowd.
i'll be fine at home(:
NO MINISTRY OF SOUND TODAY!
i'm beginning to love my life.
like wat erich says"GET OVER IT LAH"
down to town.
chat ard with joe shaun n brandon.
miss their nonsense.
hitched a ride frm shaun to mos.
chill a while at tcc.
our usual hangout.
mos after tat.
vann went home early.
party with prasad n gang.
too bad christine couldnt make it down.
i missed her.
surprisingly,i lasted for 7 hrs today.
the power of partying.
like wat psd always say,
mos is a hospital.
right,n he's e doctor.
yah,i need to rest my back now.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
he's fucking heartless.
i went thru some entries.
i seriously deserve so much better.
karma``we shall await.
i'm awake by the pain,
cant get back to slp.
damn it.
goin down to polyclinic to change my dressing.
but i'm seriously lazy .
and i really mean SERIOUSLY.
no choice.
my appetite is coming back.
but i don wanna grow fat.
meetin vann in town for dinner.
i wanna last longer outside.
argh!!!``
Friday, December 22, 2006
went town to meet tai n her fren nicole.
did something stupid,out of impulsiveness.
I PIERCED MY NAVEL!
alright,i shant say it's out of impulsive.
cos i keep naggin at dianna n nicole whether i should get it done or not.
and of cos they say go ahead.
dianna has one.n she say it's painless.
god,i really have to admit tat my pain tolerence is damn bad.
i wanted to scream when e needle went in.
damn.thk god i'm safe n sound.
haha.nonsense.
had a chat with vito.
vito:can have sex or not?
wenn:huh?
vito:i'm asking u can have sex or not u..haha..meaning have u recovered frm ur op!
god..this silly guy..stupid way to phrase himself.
alright.i wanna party soon.
i love my frenx.
i love my bestie.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
went dinner at furama with the dbs pple.
many say i lost weight n grew taller.
haha.of cos.6kg lost!! i cant even fit into my jeans now.
i guess i'm ard 167 cm??
didnt really measure.
went to dragonfly after tat.
had e gift exchange thingy.
everyone was so high.
went home at 11pm.
i guess my spine is still very weak.
i really need to complain.
singapore had hell lots of taxis.
but whr the hell did they go ytd night.
blardy hell..!!!
cant even get to on call one.damn it.
went to apply for my private dip jux now.
but still considering actually.
seriously,i'm like paying more to skip advance dip.
but it's alright.
the course interest me.
i'm starting to look down on him.
and i'm waiting.waiting for e day he falls.
i had to admit,i'm not a nice gal.
i cant forgive,nor could i forget.
karma.i believe in karma.
his retribution will be awaiting.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
it's been raining.................
another reason to make me stay home.
memories keep flashing back.
but i have to stay strong.
i've gt more to do.
alright.
settled my studies.
settled my job.
jux hope tat life will be better.
realised i've been a very selfish gal all along.
it's time i spare thoughts.
thkx bestie for being there for me always.
i love ya gal.
huuggs..
Monday, December 18, 2006
it's a boring bdae.
glenna n vann playin uno now.
i won since jux now.waiting for dem to end e game.
mervyn called me.
wishes.
he told me something else.
haha.which made me feel tat really,hypocrites.
he went drinking with him n others ytd.
n he told me about one of e conversation.
biaatch....
but watever,fuck care.
the two sillies still not ending e game.
green plus 2 wat colour??
nonsense..
a week of torture is gone.
but e pain remians.
hope it'll go soon.
first thing i came out from e OT.
i felt for my legs.to make sure e op is a successful one.
i don wanna erich or jared to wheelchair me into mos.
haha.
the food jux sucks.
i love aunt's cooking.
many came to visit.
if i list the names.i seriously don have e patience.keke
many blessings.
i'm loved (:
thkx gal for being with me for e whole journey.
loves(:
i didnt care.
i even lied i didnt like his chocs.
but i jux cant feel any sincerity frm him.
i nv will be cheated again.
erich was sweet.
thkx idiot.
u cheered me up.
i'll look after ur ipody.
nono n cassie celebrated my bdae.
(:
presents!!!
love everyone.
nurses r nice n sweet.
it's my bdae.
and i'm glad it's at home.
(:
Sunday, December 10, 2006
bye bye to my brace after tonight!!!
great,one call woke him up.
thank god.
vivo city was boring.
but since erich is goin there for e first time,
i let him experience e place.
saw brandon n guys.
shopping ard.....
went to town.
tat silly guy bought things for himself
when he should be buying presents for others.
met up with edwin n had dinner at sun with moon.
this two guys are crazy on wasabi man.
it was a great day with erich.
he made me feel comfortable.
he was a nice bud,nice fren.
tml is e day of my surgery.
i really hope things go my way.
may god bless me-
back frm chilling.
went into mos for a short while.
the pple are like........
is mos giving away money..
anyway,crowd always pissed me off.
dad was surprised i'm home early.
well i said i want a peaceful weekend.
erich better get his ass off his bed when i call him tml.
i wanna get my shoppin done.
i don wan another aeroplane.
-smilex-
Saturday, December 09, 2006
it was the best night of the week.
chill out with dianna n pam at zouk.
well we keep talking about pri sch days.
haha.alright.we didnt really change.
went to meet aaron n pple at dragonfly.
we got a room upstairs n all of us were singing like crazy.
the guys jux form a new band...CRYSTAL BAND!!
haha.alright.it was fun.
the room was nice.
took damn loads of fotos man.
met up jared n pple for supper.
home at 7 A.M!!
anyway.it's my last day to enjoy.
it's gonna be a peaceful weekend till my op.
Friday, December 08, 2006
singapore won scotland.
it was a nice game. (:
wenta watched dejavu.
with prasad n gang.
thank god i didnt say pls to erich.
cos he came in e end.
it was a great show anyway.
was kidnapped down to mos.
haha.buti went off early.
alright i have to say i find erich cute.
but he's definately not my type.
and i'm sure i'm not his too.
keep bickering with prasad.
haha.god,he's gonna find me annoying.
i'm not taking interest in any guys.
and i know myself why.
:)
soon,i'll be lying on e wardbed.
and hopefully i'll recover soon..
may god bless me-
Thursday, December 07, 2006
zouk was tooooooooo packed.
saw whyee n yen..den nono...
i guess zouk was packed for dem too.
tat's why they went momo.
mos was fun.
music was to my liking.
prasad n pple was cool.
edwin sent me home.
my stupid bestie...
wonder wat's wrong with her silly n73.
hope exams' fine for her.
singapore won canada.
i miss netball.
dinner with aunt tml.or i mean later in e evening.
i wonder wat's wrong.
maybe movie??
but i wanna watch 4 nations at tpy sports hall.
hopefully singapore will be in 1st and 2nd. (:
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
4 nations today.
great,netball!!!
i miss llabten pple.
time to catch up.
i realised i've been like so old.
when i'm only 19!!
alright,at least some say i look like my age.
but some,go to hell!i looked like 23???!!!
wth.
haha.
helping uncle seah with his project.
well,at least i'm free.
(:
mos later,??guess i might be tired..
we'll see.
-i'm gonna make life great for me-
went for blood test.
but too bad.i'm sick.
so it's someone elses blood.
went walking ard marina sq with darren.
chit chat tick tock.
went back office den off we go for dinner.
everywhere i go,memories flashed back.
but god,after today,i've heard so much.
and i got my conclusion.
moody as usual.
went supper with eric weiling n edmund.and their fren.
had fun.had drinks.played games.
weiling tat silly gal.cant stand her.
i guess this is the real him.
and i'm disappointed.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
after being home all day,
went for breakfast-lunch-dinner cum supper with eric n wei ling.
called laura down too.
seems like everyone is sick.
meet up with edwin.
he ate e same thing.
haha.walked all e way frm balestier to toa payoh.
haha.nice work out.
blood test tml.
after tat goin dinner n ktv with limin n pple.
-smilex-
Monday, December 04, 2006
i missed him.
but i noe he's not worth for me to even bother.
he's happy enjoying himself with another gal.
why do i have to make myself miserable.
all along it's a mistake.
i fell for e wrong person.
it's a lesson learnt.
the pain is terrible.
home all day today.
didnt go for blood test.
still sick.
there's so many things for me to do.
but i jux don feel like doing.
i got so many frenx.
but i jux dunno who to hang out with.
i'm so down.
but yet he's so up.
why am i still making myself so miserable becos of him.
memories.juz take it as memories.
i wanna be heartless.
i don wanna be e one,hurt.
heartbroken-
Sunday, December 03, 2006
i'm home all day.
chattin with erich on msn.
alright,conclusion.
he's a cute guy.
nice fren.
i'm stucked to my laptop for e whole day.
went dinner with denise.
borrowed bring it on back.
it was nice.well.quite nice.
blood test tml AGAIN.
god,why am i goin thru all these.
but watever it is,it's for e better.
i'm really looking forward to recovery.
it's my last week to enjoy b4 surgery.
and may god bless me. (:
i will be a very gd gal.
alright,i have to admit tat i keep thinking about him.
but i'm so glad it's over.
like wat many say,
i deserve so much better.
so i guess,it's a blessing in disguise.
blessed-
i told him of wat i heard frm others.
but i noe he don believe n doesnt care.
he even had the gal to come msg me.
but i don give a damn.
i'm so much happier now.
at least i noe wat i want.
and who he is.
i'm nice to bless dem.
it's no longer an issue to me.
zouk was alright with vito n alex.
and of cos great to have my bestie down.
i missed her.
i'm sick n still force to drink.
which makes me high in jux a few sips.
but i'm alright.
down to mos,with christine.
lawrence's bdae.
i got my self a new bf.
i love u gal.haha.
erich was cute.with his cadbury.
edwin was influencing me with his cantonese.
jared was nice.
prasad was so gentlemen to acc me to e cab.
great night.
at least not e part whr e gal smsed me.
but at least i'.m not bothered.
i'm blessed.blessed to be loved.
loved by so many.
i should be happy.
cheers-
thks aaron for being there to listen everytime.
joe n pple was great too.
alright.so is mr au.
although u tortured my eeyore.
loves -
Saturday, December 02, 2006
i realised i've been blogging my troubles more than talking it out.
well this habit has to go.
watched open season with denise n audrey.
met up with darren n guys at a pub near little india.
yes,had to trouble mr au to fetch me at the christmas tree.
so many strangers.of cos had to fetch me.haha.
went to party world after tat.
but had some probs at home.
so i went home right after we reached.
spoilsport.
got a scolding frm sis.
i had to admit my mistake.
ever since e break off,i've been like a lousy person.
it's time i realised my duty.
as a daughter,as a sister.
and not keep thinking about him.
it was e very first time in my 19 yrs tat i got cheated.
but tat doesnt give me an excuse to moan over it.
yes,i cant swollow my pride down.
flashes of the both of them tog made my heart boil.
but it's pointless.
like wat joe n aaron say.
things comes ard goes ard.
although i still need time to recover,
i should not neglect wat i should be doing.
learning to let go-
it's my life.in my hands.
Friday, December 01, 2006
out of no where,
i saw wat's gonna happen to me 3-4 yrs down e road.
-driving licence
-hospitality diploma
-joining SIA
-full spinal recovery.
i really hope my spine recover fasts.
faster tat the time predicted.
cos i'm gonna make my life full of joy.
oh ya.
went down with cuzzie for a suzuki meet up.
haha.not bad.
after tat she drove me n tian to ridley to see e ferarri's.
god.e eagle statue was magnificent.
and the zonda caugt my eye.
luxuries.
when is it my turn.haha.
rubbish.i don mind a peaceful life.
i got to noe more.
and i realised i've been far more stupid.
pls,let me gain back my pride.
he's a heartless one.
throat is damn painful.
frm now onwards.
no consuming of alcohol,
no cold drinks,
no heaty food.
till my surgery is done n till doctor says YES!
all these while.
i've given my trust to e wrong person.
it actually proved my stupidity.
i have to blame no one but myself for this stage i'm in now.
how could i actually still believe he loved me,
when he easily found himself a gal right after we broke off.
i'm too silly.i'm too soft hearted.
but now,i've learnt my lesson.
i couldnt,i couldnt force myself to be happy for him.
it's impossible.
i keep tellin myself to stop thinking about him.
but it's reaally a diff thing to do.
i've fallen so deep.
i'm having hell lots of regrets.
why,why am i so stupid to believe him.
even after e break off,i could still believe there's nth goin on btw w both of them.
god,this really proves it.i'm stupid.
how can i bring my life back to normal.
i've no strength to go on.
life without him...
today was my last day.
e pple gave me a surprise treat.
so sweet of them.
aaron asked me to forget about everything.
but i cant.he fucking happy with e gal.
and me!!wat the hell am i doing.!!
it's time i wake up.
i'm sick,
and if i don get well by mon,
i'm gonna live with someone else's blood.
lost-
