Friday, September 22, 2006
things are back to normal for me n dear.
i'm glad we are sorting things out.
but i still gt a feelin we will disagree with each other again.
watever it is.we still love each other.
n73.at last.
costing a bomb though.
dear bought one too.
meaning we have e same fone at last.
=)
darling van also buyin one tml.great!
e pain.it's so unbearABLE.
but yet.i'm enduring it.
no one understands e pain.
no one can.only myself.
appointment date clashing with exam.
die~
anyway.i wanna be normal.i wanna be healthy.
i wan NO pain.i'm tired of it.
i wanna cry.but i'm jux too use to it.too used.
~sad
Sunday, September 17, 2006
carol intor me a weekend job at marychia.
he wasnt happy.
am i too young to understand why?
or he cant understand why?
i'm down.
fucking down.
tml is our 4th mth.
i wanna a happy 4th mth.
does he understand how much i love him?
does he?
or is it i cant figure out how much his love for me.
is this resulting in a choice?
bf or job(money)
i hate this.
and i hate this feeling now.
cry cry cry.
is tat all i noe?
i'm feelin terrible now.
damn it.
i love him..but all i noe is say i love him.
is loving him so hard?
is it?
i wont give up in this relationship.
i wont.he's already part of my life.
he had replaced him.
he had climb over e barrier in my heart.
he built up my confi.
but am i losing it now:?
pls.
let everything be fine.
i pray for it.
i'm lost.
totally lost.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
work was draggin ytd.
lack of slp tat's why.
didnt meet dear after work.
i'm glad i didnt.
cos i'm sure he had fun at central.
met up with van n peeps after work.
the rain spoils everything.
so went up to pizza hut.
stayed home e whole night after tat.
can u imagine.
me stayin home ON A FRIDAY NIGHT!
but i gotten use to it ever since dunno when.
home is sweet.
waited till 3 plus for him to reach home.
tired.
tired.
tired.
one plus now.
and i'm awake.
had a chat with shiming last night too.
i'm glad tat things are better now.
we can finally face each other with no shyness.(can we)
he's an idiot after all.
but well.maybe a better friend than boyfriend.
wishing him all e best.
he's happy for me tat i'm in love .
thkx bud.
right.
whr will i be goin on a saturday??
i don't know`
Friday, September 15, 2006
is my life really so unaccceptable?
trust.
are we lacking it?
i love him.
and hope he can trust me.
losing my slp these days.
better slp now.
sad`
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
great day at town.
although i'm sick.
cravings for the hp getting stronger n stronger.
i shall work hard to buy e fone myself.
but i noe tat money is always not enuf for me.
wat to do.
no choice.gotta be independent and get it myself.
i wan my n73.
wait till my bdae n get maybe my sis or bf might get it for me?
why wait for them?i'll get it myself.
money gonna be important frm now on.i'm gonna be selfish.
sometimes i jux dun no wat can make me happy in life.
i'm jux too demanding.am i?
i wanna have a happy family.
i wanna have a happy friendship.
i wanna have a happy career provided i complete my studies.
i wanna have a happy relationship with my bf.
but all these seems too perfect i guess.
how can i get it all my way.
everytime i feel moody.
only blogging seems to be e way out.
does it really helps?
anyway.i cant figure out my moodiness today.
dear bought a watch for himself today.
gd for him.at least his happy.
great.time for bed.
hopefully i can fall aslp.
i'm sick`
damn it.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
zoo was fun.
well at least for me.not sure for him.
tried my best to make it a great day for him.
hopefully.
watched barn yard.
all becos of my dearest shiyun.
dinner with dad ,his gf n van.
food wasnt bad.
dad treat k box after tat.
saw lao gong nana.
haha..tat crazy gal..
seein u gals for steamboat tml man.
i really hope things will go smoothly for e both of us.
i really love him.
really do.
eternity hopefully.
but who e hell will believe eternity in this century.
at least for me,i will put my best in e relationship.
i'm a big gal now.
Friday, September 08, 2006
happy bdae dear!!!!gettin old leh..
i wish i could cheer u up dear.
no matter wat u still have a wonderful gf.
not 100% wonderful.but still can pass.
goin to e zoo tml.
gonna have a great time man.
use all my strength to make my bdae boy a memorable bdae.
love u dear..
skyping with van now..
like idiots..
busy........
Sunday, September 03, 2006
again..there's unhappiness btw us..
but it always wasnt being brought to e next day.
we made up after i wenta find him.
loves dear.
went to downtown.
gonggong was there.
we had lots of chat.
he and his ke yi man.
cant stand him.
went down to expo after tat.
comex.
tons of pple.
juz hate to squeeze.
dear n i share a camera for his bdae.
it's gd afterall.
i don need to crack my head on wat to buy for his bdae.
down to central pub.
their fav hangout.
celebrated aaron's bdae.
i bet he's having a hangover today.
studied at dear's hse today.
well or should i say watching vcd.
ha.
party world.
but i'm not goin.
predicting a damn busy day tml.
so rest well tonight.
Friday, September 01, 2006
headaches..
bad health.
god bless.
politics..boring.
who gives a heck.
haha.
dad seems to like dear.
frm e moment he gives him a cig.
i noe tat they click.
haha..
smokin is bad for health.
i stil persists.
